Dear Kankan,
I haven’t heard from you since you left. I am much relieved after receiving this note. You must have settled yourself and gone back to your normal activities. I am fine here, as much as is possible under the circumstances—do not get unnecessarily worried or troubled. Your visit certainly touched me, as I have expressed earlier to you. Doctors and all other medical support staff are doing their best for me – I can only appreciate this with overwhelming gratitude.
I am still at Nightingale. With such an insignificant role in the cosmic scheme of things, humans have very little ability/power to make even a minuscule change. But the indomitable human spirit fights against all adversities and strives to conquer the odds and obstacles. It is this never-give-up attitude and search for new ways – that one should respect, understand, and value most. One doesn’t know what the future holds for me – but one has to fight one’s own battle –which I am trying – at least from the mind and spiritual angle – despite my present physical limitations. Trying to read up some material regarding my maladies from the internet and other references supplied by my doctor – indeed a much inadequate layman’s effort to make something out of the whole business. Apart from any result yet to show from my treatment, I am fine mentally and physically.
I am disappointed to note the cynical attitude expressed in no uncertain terms in your mail “I am empty” regarding Kolkata, our country, and the whole world in general. You are mainly a dreamer living in a world of fantasies and romanticism. In my humble view, your observation is also superficial and casual—without trying to get into any deeper perspective.
On a personal note, I have noted your concern for me. You had lofty plans to help me rehabilitate, and I did agree, provided you could implement what you envisaged. Unfortunately, things didn’t materialize the way you wanted. No problem, though. As I said earlier, one has to fight one’s own battle—win or lose, whatever the outcome. Please don’t despair. I am fine and shall be so in mind and body as long as I live.
If I sound a bit sermonically and critical in this note, please ignore and discount them totally as ramblings of an old and perhaps deranged(?) man. Please remember that you are and shall always be my most loving and affectionate brother, and I know your earnest love and concern for me very well.
Hope everything is in order with Jaya, Soham and Mamon. With all my love to you all.
Chhorda
"Sob Kuchh Thik Thak Hai"
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40th WORLD TEAM CHAMPIONSHIPS Veldhof, The Netherlands; R14 - USA 1 v India: Oct 2011
Played for the HCL team from India for the first 10 rounds, excluding the quarter-finals.
